Monday, June 2, 2008

Well, I know that some of you may be wondering what's the latest with fertility. The answer is NO, not pregnant for the 5th cycle. I really don't know what to say but I am sad. I am confused. I am burdened. I am numb.
It truly passes through my thoughts daily and numerous time through the day that I am not pregnant.... along with so many other thoughts...but
God has given me GRACE. I read today where God told Solomon in I Kings that he had given him more than Solomon had asked for. I couldn't help but think of what God has given me that I haven't asked for.... He has been so good to me. Family, husband, life, health, home,training, mentors, heart to know Him, salvation...the list goes on.....
My heart longs so much for a another child to love, a sibling for Jadyn but I am not 90 years old ..maybe it will happen.
I am taking a physical, emotional, and financial break from it all.

5 comments:

Donna said...

Jill, I'm just so sorry. I love you and your precious family. You are an inspiration.

April Brown said...

I love you, my friend!!

Emily said...

oh jill.. i am so very sorry to hear this. my heart breaks for you each time. i hope you're doing okay. prayers are with you, my friend. love you!

annieck said...

Jill, you are so strong. I know this must be so tough. Our prayers are with you.

Kristin said...

I am so sorry, Jill. I love you...