Monday, October 26, 2009

Where to start?

I have no idea where to start since it's been almost a year since i have blogged. I know it wont be consistent, but maybe every now and then. I think I more addicted to facebook...and I feel this guilt when I am on the computer all the time....I always think what could I be reading or doing etc...I ignored the guilt tonight.

Let's see.....

The last couple of months have been a whirlwind!

  • found I was pregnant

  • My mom had a stroke

  • financial challenges in our family/ministry...............................yet God has been so Faithful.

Pregnant! Casey and I wanted a baby two years ago. So, we aggressively tried with 5 injection cycles. I could write a book on that in itself. 4 failed and one miscarriage. This past summer I think was the hardest few months of our life...strains of beach project, traveling , wisdom teeth, and the longing of wanting another child.

Casey' s mom really has been so good for me in the fact that she has walked in my same shoes. She watched her siblings and friends pop out babies while she couldn't. I dont know why God has allowed this but I am grateful for so many reasons. I feel like I know Him in a deeper, unique way. He has taught me that He is still good even when I dont get what I want. He has made the gospel sweeter to me. I feel I enjoy Jadyn so much more. I literally dont get much done around the house bc I am playing with her and just enjoying her....GRACE, grace...God's grace. (however, of course there are times I want my time)

Casey 's mom knew a doctor from Dothan, Al who gave me medicine that lowered insulin and estrogen that helped me ovulate...and on the third month it worked. When I saw positive on that pregnancy text...I fell to the floor weeping. I couldn't believe it. I am now 12 weeks and still get nervous at time but I know who allowed me to get pregnant and I cant controll anything. We are so looking forward to another child...and a sibling for Jadyn.